Weirdest thing ever... I can't make a choice about going to the theater, one of my favorite things to do, or not going. I don't want to take anyone, not a date, not anything. Just a friend would be perfect.
I see people and I know they are fine with moving on so quickly after a break-up, I know their fine with going on dates and dating other people soon after the fact but I am not the least bit like that. Especially not after this time. This time it's different, it was different. He is different, he was different. It was one of those things that only happen once in a lifetime. The second I laid eye on him my heart felt home, real home. The minute we talked my mind was hooked. The hour we touched my soul found heaven. How could I let go so fast and so soon after he left? How can I look into any guys eyes and see trust and love? For me I can't let go as swiftly as he can, but I promise to try and forget him, forgetting is my only hope, because getting over him is just a waste. For me I can't look or even speak to another guy without already having built an impenetrable wall of bricks up in front of him, a wall that I'd love if everyone just let it protect me, a wall I like in the way of anyone else getting as close as he did, to me.
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